hippocarnival | Daybreak Academy

[Toki is immensely worrying, but Yuya knows by now he can't control him. If he didn't know Toki doesn't tend to spend the night sleeping there, he might have more reservations. But Toki will go where he wills.]

i think since i was a baby

i don't know if they're worse

Toki says he doesn't care i just don't want to

He says he doesn't care about what?
You know how he is, he just says whatever he thinks people wants to hear???
What is it you want, if you don't care about bothering him?
People usually find it more comfortable sleeping in their own bed, after all.

i care about bothering but he says my nightmares don't bother him

but because he's not always honest i don't know how true that is

[Really, though, they're an excuse. Even Yuya can recognize that.]

we were talking about his problems and it's awkward right now

it'll be fine tomorrow

LOL
How do you expect it to be fine if you run away and ignore it?
Toki going "good morning, Yuya!!!!!!!!" means that everything is fine?
Didn't you just tell me how he is?

[ A liar, just like Kano is. Somebody who pushes people away and pretends things are alright, just like Kano does. ]

he's not fine but

he doesn't want me to do anything

i was being pushy but there's nothing i can do

he said he'll keep getting help from the doctors

Blehhhhhh
The doctors here are no good~
I have lots of bad ideas I want to try out, but!!!
I'm not going to get involved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So do your best, Yu~ya~

i said maybe he could try one in lyon instead of soleil

but he said he'll keep trying with them right now

he's not really not okay

[A longer pause, and then:]

and you know Toki not being okay isn't your fault right?

Is the one in Lyon really that much better????
I wouldn't know bc I've never been!
How far is Lyon from Soleil?

[ just ignores that question, which should be all Yuya needs to know about how Kano feels about that. ]

not that far i think you can still take a day trip by helicopter so he doesn't have to leave campus

but bigger cities usually have better hospitals i think?

I see, I see~
Better hospitals aren't in bigger cities, though??
There's sooooooooo many more people in bigger cities!!!!!!
It's not like Toki needs a brain surgeon or anything, he's fine~

[ What he needs is time and attention and large busy places like Daybreak or Lyon aren't going to be able to give him that. ]

yeah but because there's more people they try and hire the best doctors to take care of all of them right?

[That sounds right... he guesses it depends though.]

he's really not fine

he doesn't need surgery but

i don't think he's ever been okay and when he lost his sister and became a seer it made everything worse

Is that how it is?
LOL
Death and magic sure do that to a person!!!!!!!!
Is he getting along with Kuroko?

[What does Kuroko have to do with it...]

yeah

i handle taking care of her but Toki likes having her around

but he was trying to train her to do tricks and wear a clown suit

she wasn't interested

[ She's very important. There's a point to this. Probably. ]

LOL
Did she manage to learn any tricks?????
How come you don't ask him to take care of her too?

because i don't trust him to

[That sounds bad but it's not wrong.]

i don't think he'd mean to but he lost interest in being responsible for her really quickly

and i don't want her to suffer because his problems mean he can't look after her properly

a cat's a lot more work

Have some faith~
He looked after Tsuyukusa all that time, didn't he?

[ Tsuyukusa looked after himself. He also looked after Toki. ]

[Yeah they both know what a fucking lie that is.]

you know that was different

maybe if he ever wants to but i think he needs help first

[Like, a lot of help. Maybe Kano really didn't see it, and that's why things got so bad between them. He couldn't tell how lost Toki was.]

want to make a blanket fort?

[ Maybe Kano couldn't see it because he's just a bit off-kilter inside as well, looking at Toki and understsanding what he can and accept what he can't. Toki is Toki just like he is himself, and they are both going to be fine.

"I'm not going to get involved," Kano said, like a liar. He's not giving up; things have already been in motion behind the scenes, and he needs some time too. So does Yuya. ]

Bring your blanket and all your pillows!!!!!!

[Kano isn't fine either, but even then Yuya doesn't have the same doubts that he isn't aware of what he's doing. He knows, and there's a difference between knowing it's a bad idea and doing it anyway, and not having any sense to question it at all. Or being unable to help himself from acting on his first idea.]

i only have one pillow

but two blankets i'll bring them

[Quick makes it an extra ten minutes, but he shows up at Kano's door with two blankets (one of which is a worn quilt from home that's usually left in the closet), a pillow, and some sweats to sleep in under one arm, and in the other a bag of mushroom popcorn (luckily, the cafeteria knew what he was talking about) and two bottles of apple juice.]

[ That's the kicker, isn't it? Having awareness, and the ability to compensate so nobody can tell anything is wrong at first glance. The cafeteria has probably been getting requests from Kano for mushroom popcorn for the past three years— nearly any weirdly specific thing Kano asks for can probably be found at the cafeteria, bless them for being accomodating.

Yuya gets to stand outside the door for two minutes before it swings open and Kano takes a step back- then a step forward to relieve Yuya of the juice and the popcorn. ]

Ahh, you brought drinks too! How good, now we don't have to drink tap water~ Can I keep the bottles after??

Yeah, sure. [Yuya smiles faintly as he steps in, closing the door behind him with his foot.] Since your beds are already pushed together, that'll make this easier.

[He drops his bundle at the corner of his before pulling both blankets off the top.]

Ah! Careful, careful...!

[ When Yuya pulls the blankets off the top of the bed, Nightmare comes tumbling down along with it, with Kano dumping the bottles onto the desk and jumping in just in time to grab her before Yuya gets smacked in the face.

Apparently, the bed is still Nightmare's domain. She gets lifted up and set in Kano's hoodie instead, where he can feel slightly choked by the weight. ]

Alright, so I've only really done this with a table with Toki, so you're going to have to walk me through it! Are the beds okay up against the wall, or do we need to bring 'em to the center of the room???

Ah--[Yuya jerks back, giving Kano room to thankfully catch her as he looks with mild alarm.] Sorry!

[Sorry Kano, sorry Nightmare... Yuya pulls the blankets more slowly this time.] No, against the wall is better because then we only need three blankets, so we can have one to sit on. Uh, the best way would be this.

[He shakes one of the blankets, holding it taut and then tucking one edge between the mattress and the frame--just enough to hold it while leaving most of it to dangle down as a cover.]

[ It's fine, they're fine, and Nightmare seems to not care enough to raise any more fuss now that she's somewhere warmer. Kano watches the process for a moment and then grabs one of the blankets to do the same with the other side. The third will go down on front side, and the last... ]

Think you can lift a mattress? Then we can set that on the ground under the bunk to sit on, instead of the ground!

I can, but they're holding the blankets in place. [The front side might be fine, but they'd lose half the edges unless Kano has another way to secure them.

Once the three blankets are up, Yuya collects the pillows from the top.]

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