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YUYA SAKAKI UN: FUNDIRECTION

STATUS: Student Grade 9

ACCOLADES: (Here is a list of leading roles Yuya's has in school theater performances over the past two years, plus a glowing review of his familiar Odd-Eyes)

BIO: Hello! You can call me Yuya. I'm from Sendai, Japan. This is my second year in Daybreak Academy. I'm a Tamer, and Odd-Eyes is my familiar. He's the big red dragon that hangs out in the courtyards. He's friendly but he tries to steal food sometimes. I speak Japanese and English but not very good French. I'm also in the theater club. I'm in Lumiere 203. Let's be friends!

© TESSISAMESS

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[betheman]

Y-Yuu-

[Carefully, and even gently, Gongenzaka pulls the other up but pulls him into a hug. Not a crushing one like he was greeted with. A softer one, as he finds himself lost on what words to say.

So he simply stands there, arms around the other, in the quiet.]

[hippocarnival]

[Yuya starts to sob, limp in Gongenzaka's arms without the energy to do much else. It's just so much, getting worse instead of better. He'd thought he'd run out of tears in Lyon, but apparently not.]

[betheman]

[And Gongenzaka... ...Gongenzaka will give him that time. Carefully holding the other close, one hand idly rubbing the back of Yuuya's head. He can't find words to help- but he can at least find the motions that might, and so he'll do so as long as the other needs.]

[hippocarnival]

[It's a few minutes before Yuya manages to compose himself again, moving to wipe his face dry with his hands. What a mess...]

[betheman]

[And still Gongenzaka says nothing, at least not until Yuuya is absolutely moving. When that happens, he eases on the hug for the other's sake, waiting for the right moment to speak.]

Will you be alright...Yuuya..?

[hippocarnival]

... Yeah. [Or at least, he says he will be even if he doesn't feel like it. At least not to stress Gongenzaka out even more, right now he'll be all right.] I will, I just--it's a lot.

[betheman]

Aauh. ...If it means much at all... ...you are very strong, to carry the weight of it, [he insists quietly.] It seems like more than I, the man Gongenzaka can imagine.

[hippocarnival]

[Yuya pulls up a small smile, drawing back. They'll see how strong he is when it's actually tested.]

... Did anything happen after I left? [Anything else he needs to worry about, he might as well stress about it now.]

[betheman]

Mnnh...after...

I, the man Gongenzaka, would say not- those strange orbs in fact vanished the last day you were here, or at least had vanished by the evening...

[hippocarnival]

Oh--that's good. [He rubs the side of his neck, glancing sideways.] That was pretty uncomfortable.

[betheman]

A-Auuh, I, the man Gongenzaka imagine so... [He rubs the back of his neck, wondering how he should mention the one he saw.] I myself did not find any of my memories scattered so...

...

Or at least, I do not think so...

[oh no]

[hippocarnival]

I didn't find any. But they all scattered so quickly, it's not like I could tell how many of them got out.

[betheman]

Mnnhhh...but they were memories all the same...

[.....

....Awwww gee.] ...I, the man Gongenzaka...

...do think I may have found, one however... [he mutters, glancing to the side as his face heats up.]

[hippocarnival]

Found one of yours? [He didn't think people were getting hit by their own memories after they left--he sure didn't, but he didn't stick around to learn more about what happened, either.

He glances up, pausing when he sees Gon's red face.]

[betheman]

No, yours...

[hippocarnival]

... Oh. [Oh.

He's not going to ask with a reaction like that.]

[betheman]

I did not know how to tell you, but it is better that you know it was seen rather than not... [WHY DID HE HAVE TO MENTION IT]

[hippocarnival]

... So are you going to tell me what it is or pretend it didn't happen? [And Yuya can pretend he didn't bring it up.]

[betheman]

[He could pretend. He could, but that would be a Lie.

Also he's pretty sure Yuuya would fail to forget (which is his own fault), and it would Consume him.]

...It was a moment in the locker room, [he admits, sighing.] It was nothing 'bad' however, [He quickly insists.] Merely a short conversation after training..!

[And hopefully that won't lead Yuuya to Any Terrible Conclusions at all.]

[hippocarnival]

[Gon is a terrible liar. It's really just making Yuya more anxious, the way he dodges around it.]

Then why is your face red?

[betheman]

[Heck.] ...

...You were admittedly thinking of my muscles, in the memory... [That is as much as he is saying and he really hopes he doesn't spook poor Yuuya off.]

[hippocarnival]

[Ah.

Yuya leans back, a startled expression frozen on his face and his cheeks turning pink from embarrassment.] Ah. I, was--I just--

[betheman]

Auh-!

Y-Yuuya! You do not need to justify yourself, believe me! I, the man Gongenzaka...

[....

...Actually if he thinks about it this is...probably the best time to talk about this, isn't it.

He smiles, but it's a little bit forced, admittedly.] ...I...

...I think there is something that I, the man Gongenzaka, need to talk to you about, Yuuya. ...Something that is only my fault, [He adds with a small nod.]

[hippocarnival]

[Yuya is already sinking back against the wall.] What?

[betheman]

[Nononono don't do that oh,] I-

[...........He takes a deep breath, and remembers what advice he was given. Be honest. Say it clearly.

He'll understand.

Ok.]

...Before I, the man Gongenzaka, asked you to go on a 'date'... ...I realized something about how I was feeling, and how I had felt, for a long time I believe, [He begins.] ...but...

...I acted without thinking about how to tell you that...And rather than enjoying time with you as I, the man Gongenzaka, had hoped, it felt that in my action I made things difficult. And confusing, for both of us.

...I, the man Gongenzaka... I, the man Gongenzaka, was not fair to you, Yuuya! [he continues, bowing his head.] I acted recklessly, when I should have simply said that all that changed was what I, the man Gongenzaka, knew..! I, the man Gongenzaka...

[He is red in the face, and practically bursting apart from the inside, but he is going to SAY this, he's dedicated himself to it now.] I, the man Gongenzaka, love you! More than anything, truly! And...I believe that I have, for a long time, [he adds, his eyes watering already.]

...But I do not know how to show it, beyond what I have already done for that time...beyond doing what feels right, [he adds.] Yuuya... ...You knew, at least...a little it feels, what you wanted. But I, the man Gongenzaka...

I do not know how to put these feelings to words, or even actions, [he admits as tears begin to fall.] And to make you wait until then, would be unforgivable of me! More so, when I have already made you wait! [He adds- and maybe that's a guess. Maybe it's not quite right. But...]

So... ...I, the man Gongenzaka, am going to dedicate myself to understanding this- and to making certain that I, the man Gongenzaka, do not bring it forward so boldly until I do so..! [he declares.] Because what matters to me the most, out of everything, is your happiness!

[... .....

He is as red as Yuuya's hair, and he really hopes he didn't just screw everything up.]