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YUYA SAKAKI UN: FUNDIRECTION

STATUS: Student Grade 9

ACCOLADES: (Here is a list of leading roles Yuya's has in school theater performances over the past two years, plus a glowing review of his familiar Odd-Eyes)

BIO: Hello! You can call me Yuya. I'm from Sendai, Japan. This is my second year in Daybreak Academy. I'm a Tamer, and Odd-Eyes is my familiar. He's the big red dragon that hangs out in the courtyards. He's friendly but he tries to steal food sometimes. I speak Japanese and English but not very good French. I'm also in the theater club. I'm in Lumiere 203. Let's be friends!

© TESSISAMESS

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[hippocarnival]

And you don't want to tell her? Those kinds of things about yourself.

[Yuya's noticed, of course, that Kano holds so much close to his chest. But he thought, if it was anyone, surely his sisters got through to him in ways nobody else did.]

[suddenlybees]

[ He actually laughs at that. ]

No way, no way! I'm not telling her, ever!!

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Why? [Yuya asks honestly, his expression open for the answer.] You don't think it would change her feelings about you, either, do you?

[suddenlybees]

Uh. It's not like that, but more like... I'm not telling anybody, ever??

[ If he told her, what's the worst that could happen..... It'd be breaking an unspoken rule, and maybe he just doesn't want things to change, for better or for worse. It's a stupid rule, the not-talking rule, that they'd made when they were kids and didn't know any better, but it'd worked well until now and there's no reason to talk about things that would just make the other person upset.

EXCEPT THIS EVOKER BUSINESS, MINAKO!!! All of Kano's issues are invisible ones nobody needs to know, but this gun stuff is the opposite of invisible, how did she think she could get away not talking about it?? ]

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[Yuya lets out a breath, his shoulders sinking a little. He can't argue with that, necessarily, but...]

Is there anyone that you tell these things to? [Or does he just carry the burden alone? It's sad, because he sees Kano as someone who so easily has people, certainly has people around him who care. People he could lean on if he wanted.]

[suddenlybees]

No? Why would I want to...?

[ There's no reason for it, as far as he can see. Living like this has become his life to the extent that it doesn't feel like a burden, he'd gotten used to it. Not telling anybody about himself because they don't need to know, wanting to learn everything about everybody else because he's curious and wants to know. It can just stay like that. ]

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Well... [Yuya draws his hands back.] Because if it hurts, then it feels a little lighter to share it. Then you aren't so alone with it, and... people who care about you, they'll do it happily if it makes anything better for you.

[His expression twists a little, hesitant.] Kano doesn't share much about himself at all, despite asking so much about other people. Even if I asked you wouldn't tell me, right?

[suddenlybees]

[ Alright, they can have this nice heart-to-heart while Minako contemplates escaping out the window, time is fake.

Only, Kano frowns a little, because he knows it's always like that, but it isn't supposed to matter. People like talking about themselves, sharing their hobbies and interests, other people relish in the opportunity to have the spotlight on them. Not him. So it shouldn't matter, right? if it were one sided. ]

Putting it like that... it's not like I hurt anywhere, you know? Things about me, they're uninteresting, in the end. There's nothing good to be gained, hearing my story.

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Getting to know you better is enough good. [He says, a brief smile tugging at his lips.]

And... [This might be poking something he shouldn't. He knows it isn't true that Kano isn't hurt, somehow. Desperately taking blame to placate the hollow, hiding his injuries, even when exerting it isn't really necessary--like it'll really stop the worry. But the settling realization that even people as precious as his sisters don't see it...]

... that's not just because you're hiding the way it hurts? [He purses his lips.] Your illusions are pretty good, aren't they?

[suddenlybees]

[ Yuya should've just left it at "Getting to know you better is enough good," because while Kano doesn't believe it for a second, a part of him wants to. But then he pushes further, and pokes at something Kano knows he does and has never admitted and doesn't plan to start now.

Letting Yuya see his injuries was a slip he really regrets, but there is absolutely no way he will ever let Yuya know that he fabricates even his own smiles and laughter, every single one since he was six years old, because that's the extent of his hurt. Nobody can ever know that. ]

Haha, they're pretty good, aren't they~ But they're not foolproof like that, you know?

[ Want to unmask him? Make him hurt. And Yuya knowing what his home life used to be like, he's positive Yuya wouldn't dare. ]

[hippocarnival]

[Yuya shrugs.] I'm not good with that kind of magic. I can't see through it unless you take it down.

[He doesn't know it's there right now, even, isn't at the point of assuming he's under a constant fabrication. But he knows some sort of fabrication is there. He's seen the cracks enough.

Yuya holds his hand out, not really to offer for Kano to take it now but--just as a welcoming gesture.] But I'll listen if you ever want to talk about it. Or if you just--don't want to have to hide it all the time, I won't tell.

[suddenlybees]

[ Kano laughs that fake laugh that sounds like his normal laugh. ]

Like a secret-keeper, huh~ I'll keep that in mind, but it's both ways, alright? Tell me your secrets too~!

[ THEY'RE GOING TO DO IT LIKE THIS. He won't ever promise telling Yuya anything, but he will take every opportunity to learn Yuya's secrets, he is a leech. ]

[hippocarnival]

Do I seem like I keep a lot of secrets? [He definitely has them, some of which he can't share because of how he could drag others down with them. Some of them just feel stupid in the grand scheme of things, and others are too worryingly true for him.

He worries over his lip briefly.] Okay. I'll trust you with mine, too.

[Not... now in the middle of the hall, obviously. But if Kano suggests a give and take, Yuya realizes it'd be unfair to withhold. Even if some of it are things he's scared of talking about.]

[suddenlybees]

Everybody has their secrets~

[ But the promise is made and Kano claps Yuya on the shoulder, mostly to turn him around back towards the stairs. ]

Why don'tcha go check up on Toki? Make sure everything's alright down there, while I clear things up from here, before anybody gets on my case about things?

[ e.g. Minako for him screaming up and down the halls. Possibly also Imelda for him screaming. Also every other person who lives on this floor and the ones below it. ]

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Oh--right. [Now that Kano's not in a total panic and Minako isn't dying, Yuya should make sure Toki came back inside. He wasn't wearing a coat. Or shoes.

He starts forward, calling over his shoulder.] Good luck with Minako!

[suddenlybees]

Good luck with Toki~!!

[ Yuya needs more luck than he does, tbqh ]

[yokeye]

[Toki hasn't come back inside. He found the shrine and had been trying to picture what they'd been doing out there. He can't imagine that he'd built the thing himself, but it has Tsuyukusa's name on it. Would Yuya and/or Kano do something that elaborate for remembrance of a jellyfish? Toki thinks not. Did he drag them out here for some ridiculous pseudo-funeral at night? With candles and everything? He collects the candles, which had been lit at some point, so he knows some sort of ceremony-like thing was held. Somehow, he's been out here sitting by the shrine for the last ten minutes and still has no idea how it got here. It's frustrating.]

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[Yuya wanders around for a bit, checking their room and the common room before coming back to the shrine.

He slows his approach when he sees Toki still sitting there, candles gathered, and when he's by his side leans over to put a gentle hand on his shoulder.] Toki. Let's go back inside.

[yokeye]

[He doesn't hear Yuya coming and he startles a bit at the touch before getting up.]

Is Minako okay!? Did you find out what happened, or explain what's going to happen!? Does she know what that building is!?

[hippocarnival]

Minako's okay. Kano's talking to her. [Or going to talk to her, but he assumes by this point he got into the room.] Whatever you saw, it definitely isn't happening right now.

[yokeye]

But it's going to happen sometime!

[He keeps seeing her hold the gun to head, hearing the shot. There's this feeling of dread and terror bubbling under the surface.]

I was wrong! It's worse now! The visions! Seeing her and knowing something's going to happen! Before it was like surreal terrifying nightmares while I was awake, but I didn't keep thinking about them afterwards! I don't want to see her kill herself!

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Toki! [Well now he's gotta out her to someone else. Yuya reaches for his shoulders, giving him a pleading look as he tries to calm him down.] Listen to me. Minako's not going to kill herself. Pointing a gun at herself is how her summoning works. She's a Tamer. That's--normal.

[It's a weirdest damn thing to call normal, though.]

[yokeye]

That's.. what? How does that work!? That's not normal!

[He's trying to calm down, but he feels like crying and screaming at the same time. But he has to deal with this, because it's going to keep happening.]

Why didn't... why didn't you say that before? I didn't know! I don't know her well and she's never... Why would it work that way?

[Looking back down at the shrine, he decides not to mention that to Yuya. He's sure he's looking on the verge of panic every time Yuya talks to him and he doesn't need to know everything.]

I'm sorry! I just... it was the first time that I knew someone...

[hippocarnival]

Y-you and Kano were both panicking! [And Toki really wasn't helping, and Yuya was more concerned Kano was going to do something reckless between the two of them. He didn't get the chance to explain it before people were running off.] I don't know why her power works that way, I just know because I've seen it. Without knowing, it's scary.

[yokeye]

[He hadn't meant it to sound like he was accusing Yuya of withholding information.]

But she's okay for now. And maybe, it was like, just her on a mission and killing some shadow monster. It doesn't always have to be about something bad, right?