[ He repeats the word, genuinely surprised. He'd never really thought about it, but fear doesn't seem like the right word in this instance. It's too strong. ]
No, I don't think I'm afraid. Should I be afraid??
[ He just doesn't know, isn't aware of whys when he doesn't believe it matters. This doesn't matter either, not wanting to see the consequences of his actions, because he's already convinced himself that no matter how hard he tries, he will mess something up, something will go wrong and there'll only be disaster left in his wake no matter how hard he tries. But he has to try, or there's no reason for anything he does, no reason he should continue to exist. So he'll cling to that. ]
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[ He repeats the word, genuinely surprised. He'd never really thought about it, but fear doesn't seem like the right word in this instance. It's too strong. ]
No, I don't think I'm afraid. Should I be afraid??
[ He just doesn't know, isn't aware of whys when he doesn't believe it matters. This doesn't matter either, not wanting to see the consequences of his actions, because he's already convinced himself that no matter how hard he tries, he will mess something up, something will go wrong and there'll only be disaster left in his wake no matter how hard he tries. But he has to try, or there's no reason for anything he does, no reason he should continue to exist. So he'll cling to that. ]