[Part of him wants to tell Yuya, and part of him doesn't. For the same reason. He's afraid he'll do it again.]
It's not someone, it's- I-
[He drops his hand. Okay, he's doing this.]
Remember in Kano's closet, when I told you something was watching, but I didn't know what it was!? I've been seeing those eyes, that daemon or whatever it is, so many times! I see them when I try to sleep and I still feel it watching for hours after I have a vision about it! It was just- I had a bad day with that and I had a vision about it during the interview with the BBC and Adelaide was there she got them to turn off the camera before I started screaming about it, but they got like part of it, and that doesn't matter, that's not what- I freaked out after, like a lot and I told Adelaide everything because I thought the eyes were the daemon I made a contract with and she said she'd help and we went back here so I could write everything down!
[He stands up from his chair to lift his mattress and grab the notebook Yuya gave him. The other one, Screenplays About My Cat, falls to the floor in his haste. He shoves the vision notebook at Yuya, open to a page filled with slanted, panicked writing and scores of drawings of the same eye over and over.]
I couldn't stop drawing them! I still felt it! And then when we left, it wasn't even five minutes and I had another vision about the same eyes again and it was horrible and I could feel them like penetrating into my soul! And at the end of it, I was looking in a mirror, but my eye wasn't mine! It was the daemon's! It was dripping blood and staring at me and it wasn't mine! It wasn't mine! I had to get it out! I had to! That's all I was thinking about!
[He starts crying half-way through, a panicking choking in between sentences, but he can't stop. He needs to get it all out.]
I tried to take it out! I just- I just clawed at it and I couldn't stop! I couldn't stop! Adelaide was holding me down and I was kicking her and screaming at her to let me do it! I- I wanted it to stop watching me...
[Now that's he's said it, it's not as much of a relief as he thought it would be. There's just more panic over what Yuya will think.]
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It's not someone, it's- I-
[He drops his hand. Okay, he's doing this.]
Remember in Kano's closet, when I told you something was watching, but I didn't know what it was!? I've been seeing those eyes, that daemon or whatever it is, so many times! I see them when I try to sleep and I still feel it watching for hours after I have a vision about it! It was just- I had a bad day with that and I had a vision about it during the interview with the BBC and Adelaide was there she got them to turn off the camera before I started screaming about it, but they got like part of it, and that doesn't matter, that's not what- I freaked out after, like a lot and I told Adelaide everything because I thought the eyes were the daemon I made a contract with and she said she'd help and we went back here so I could write everything down!
[He stands up from his chair to lift his mattress and grab the notebook Yuya gave him. The other one, Screenplays About My Cat, falls to the floor in his haste. He shoves the vision notebook at Yuya, open to a page filled with slanted, panicked writing and scores of drawings of the same eye over and over.]
I couldn't stop drawing them! I still felt it! And then when we left, it wasn't even five minutes and I had another vision about the same eyes again and it was horrible and I could feel them like penetrating into my soul! And at the end of it, I was looking in a mirror, but my eye wasn't mine! It was the daemon's! It was dripping blood and staring at me and it wasn't mine! It wasn't mine! I had to get it out! I had to! That's all I was thinking about!
[He starts crying half-way through, a panicking choking in between sentences, but he can't stop. He needs to get it all out.]
I tried to take it out! I just- I just clawed at it and I couldn't stop! I couldn't stop! Adelaide was holding me down and I was kicking her and screaming at her to let me do it! I- I wanted it to stop watching me...
[Now that's he's said it, it's not as much of a relief as he thought it would be. There's just more panic over what Yuya will think.]