But it's going to happen sometime!

[He keeps seeing her hold the gun to head, hearing the shot. There's this feeling of dread and terror bubbling under the surface.]

I was wrong! It's worse now! The visions! Seeing her and knowing something's going to happen! Before it was like surreal terrifying nightmares while I was awake, but I didn't keep thinking about them afterwards! I don't want to see her kill herself!